say it with flowers.

Doing up our room has been fun and I have realized that on days when tired and blah-ed out, all it takes to make your room look new, vibrant, exciting and alive is fresh flowers. i highly recommend lillies which are avaible at the Park Towers flower shop at Rs.225 a stem, and kept well, can last easily upto a month.

sisters and sehris- the best combination ever.

reminders

there's something about watching the wedding home videos that`can really resolve issues that arise between me and k at home.
they bring back so much of what was happening only in my head...which no amount of words could do justice to. so many feelings that were poignant and pertinent at only that time. of wondering happiness. awe. numbness. fear. oh, and the butterflies. all gazillion of them. since any and every video made at my wedding was by friends and family, there is nothing professional about it...it's shaky, mad, happy and completely brimming with the feeling that i felt signified my entire wedding time.
and every single time, they remind me of the rightness i felt in my heart and why i married k in the first place.

For the fifth time, how are you today...?

i have realized i have to fight the urge to call my mom, dad, the poogle, lil jam and k several times a day these days, just see if everything is ok. it's a scary on-the-edge kind of a thing to do...and im praying hard, hoping i don't sound panicky and insane to them.

meant-to-be.

I think after enough time and happiness in your life, you can get over the Very Bad Thing that happened to you and move on- freer, older, wiser, better, and essentially happier.

knowing me knowing you

recently i met someone i used to know a long time ago. and i realized in a new way why we stopped knowing each other. all the feelings and emotions of then came back crystal clear as it hit me that though we might not be aware of all the logical details of our gut-instinct-decisions at the time we make them, slowly surely, time unravels and the haze of feelings lift to reassure you that you knew what you were talking about, even back then, many years ago.

in times of need and scare

as if life wasn't scary enough already in the number of people you love and pray for, being married adds a whole new dimension to it, as i put k to the growing list of people im consciously and subconsciously praying for as much as i can remember. as i watch people's stories, of losing fathers, mothers and husbands and wives and kids, i ask Allah Mian to give them strength for their ordeals and for Him to give us all strength to keep loving those around us, without too much fear in our minds and with a lot faith in our hearts.

marriage perks.

i think one of the nicest things about being married is the ability to get up go for a late night drive and not have to constantly sms your father to tell him you are 7 minutes away from home and that you will be back by midnight.

days of the full house...

Sehri time at my mom's house (note it's not my house anymore) has always been a mad affair. Somehow my sisters and I are (used to be) at our craziest, brightest and funniest at the time, which promises an uproaringly loud 4am. We (used to) laugh like maniacs at everything possible usually prompting silent tears of merriment from my mom, and an absolute deaf ear from my dad, who after years of dealing with 4 females has evolved superior ignore mechanisms and prefers to eat and go back to sleep.

This year it's k and myself alone since Mummy is in islamabad till after eid. And even though there's a little jig in my heart at all the newness of things and life with him, I cant help feeling sad at the thought of my usual spot on the kitchen floor being empty, as my family congregates for sehri once more starting tomorrow.

ready, get-married, go!

i recently faced my first "so any good news?" type querying intrusion. as i stared at the lady who is very close to me actually (relation-wise) i wondered if i should honestly share with her my beliefs on the topic and remind her ive been married all of only 70 days or simply smile sweetly and let her think what she might. i decided (against my better judgement) to speak up, only to have her shake her head at me disappointingly, advising me on the opposite, without even listening to me.

no matter how long you might have been going out, been in love, wanted to get married or even lived together, when you marry, you start again. its a new set of circumstances, a fresh set of ideas, a brand new packaging of everything that you might have always felt and wanted. i believe it becomes so important to be together by yourselves for a while, learn anew or new what the person is all about...figure out shared dreams and projects and ideals and plans...understand first the couple that one must evolve into without losing sense of the individual and rushing headfirst into a unit.